Brooke Campbell: Music
I Am Not
(Brooke Campbell)
I am not
what I wanted to be at this point
But it's a waste to try to calculate disparities.
Just holds you back.
I will never know
What I could have had
The wind changes direction
to much for that
I need something to reach through
all that has past and make it new.
If anyone knew how bad I've been they would blush
They might run.
But, the morning sun has been waking me anyway
I have wished it wouldn't
I have not become all I could be.
Time highlights the distance between that and me
I need something to reach through tenderly and merge the two.
How deep can it go, this need of mine?
Burying my heart-if I could find a single sure hold, you know I'd climb right into you.
Oh, the weight!
I'll never know
what I could've had
The wind changes direction
too much for that
I need something to reach through
all that's happened
and make it new.